Kinda disheartened.

While i was on the way home, my mum told me about this cousin, my age, she's going to england for further studies on law. Another same age cousin she's doing her uni this year. I was thinking, how about myself? I'm nothing. The highest qualification i have is O level. What am i gonna do then?

1. Going overseas

If i have the finance, i'll definitely go ahead. My family is just an average doing family so my parents couldn't afford to pay the school fees that's like SGD$60-70K?

2. Local

Other than TP having photography course, i don't think there's other places have recognise cert i can go for right? The fact that i can't go into any course in poly(except nursing in NYP), that's depressing enough. What more to say about photography? x10000 I really pray and hope, city college will have a photography course that i can learn something and bring my photography into another level.

I know people have always known me as the photographer but what am i doing? Nothing. I don't know where can i start. How did i start the other time then? I'm really confused. The road in front of me it's like i'm entering a woods where it's sososo foggy. I can hardly see anything.

All the more i have these things to depress about, i only have one thing that can hold on and that's God. He's my strength, my refuge, my comforter, my friend, my saviour, my destiny. Where can i go without Him? If all have gone, i only have one hope and sure i know that's God. I think i'll thank God that i only have one strength and that's photography. I'm not really that that good in dancing, singing, make up, acting. At least i know what's the trade i have to go for.

Dear God,

I know you're looking at my blog and hearing my heart speaking. I pray that You'll give me a clearer path to walk. I don't need it to be everything laid and tell me what to do but i want you to hold my hand and guide me step by step like a toddler and a father, teaching the kid how to walk. I'm taken, i'm taken out of misery because you gave. God, hear my cry. I love you God, with my heart, my soul and my mind.

Let me always remember your goodness O Lord.